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+slug = "fear"
+title = "On fear"
+date = "2025-01-22"
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+Tags = ["Life", "Transgender", "Politics"]
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+I'm afraid, and I don't know what to do about it.
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+I don't even know what to write here.
+I don't have any big insights.
+But I am scared.
+I'm scared for all the trans people in the US.
+I'm scared for all the immigrants in the US.
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+I feel bad about it, but what I'm most scared of is that the clusterfuck that is happening in the US will come over to Belgium.
+And I'm privileged as fuck.
+I have a good-paying job, friends and family who support me, an appartment I own.
+But I'm still scared.
+People around me seem to be mostly coping with the current events through multiple layers of sarcasm and irony.
+I try to play along, but I can't do it.
+Things feel too momentous and too fucked to do it.
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+History teaches that popular opinion can change quickly.
+I don't know what to do to make sure that it doesn't turn against people like me.
+I'm trans.
+I'm also less and less out about it.
+At my previous job, I was out and proud at work.
+But I still don't feel comfortable coming out at my current one.
+I'm not out at the Red Cross instance I volunteer at.
+The only thing I can think of to do my part in preventing the popular opinion change I'm scared about is being more and more out.
+But I'm afraid to come out.
+I probably shouldn't be.
+But I am.
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+The ramble above probably won't help.
+There are no conclusions here.
+But I needed to get this off my chest.
+At least this feeling is out there now.